Tired!

Spring has arrived and it's fantastic, especially when you're living in Canada with snow and minus temperatures for 5-6 months of the year. I know it won't last, that we'll have at least one last cold spell/snow dump, but it's definitely welcome sunshine and warm temperatures for now. So why am I so tired!? Usually the sun brings out renewed energy, but I can't seem to get going today. I'm not going to beat myself up about it, I'm just going to go to bed early! I've been thinking about life here in the 'village'. I'm not used to living in a small town, and this is definitely a small town! Problem is, that it's not just a small town, it's a small army town that has a turnover of people every few years, so when you know something is temporary, you don't establish roots as well and deep as normal. At least I don't. I think other army wives are better and the here and now, and do very well making the most of their time in a place, but I always have in the back of my mind, the fact that I'll be leaving and even the house is temporary and not ours, so I don't try and make it mine. That's probably a large part of the problem. I need to do the exact opposite. I need to try and make our lives feel permanent in a temporary place, so I should be making our home as much our as possible. Anyway, I've got a five year old yammering in my ear, so it's going to be a short post today. But as promised, at least once a day!

I love my kids

It's so easy to go from a negative space to a positive one and back. I noticed that last night when my little one wouldn't get to sleep. She was tired, but she wouldn't be still and I was starting to get a little angry with her. Then I just told myself that she wasn't feeling well, 'poor thing' and all of the sudden the anger dissipated. I need to read that book again, 'Why we hate'. Same thing with my older one. If I take that extra second to see things from his perspective, I usually regain my temper quite easily. However, if I'm in a bad mood myself or feel a bit vindictive, it's easy to go from a good mood to a bad one as well. And I know what I shouldn't be doing, even as I do or say the wrong thing. Anyway, I thought last night about my first 3-week habit to form and I thought that there are so many more productive habits that i could be starting with. For instance - starting off the morning with a hot water lemon drink instead of a coffee. Or doing 5 sun salutations in the morning when I get up, or playing 10 minutes every morning with my kids before they go to school (okay the one, the other's a bit young!!). Anyway, patience, dear G, patience. It'll come.

Giving a good habit 3 weeks

Going to try this creating a new (good) habit in three weeks. I should be a pro at this by now, but those ugly bad habits always come creeping back in. I think one of the problems is that change comes so slowly, and for someone like me, in this day and age who is used to instant gratification, the word slow is not often in my vocabulary. I have noticed that I do have some habits that I've acquired in the past year or two that could be considered an improvement on my former 'life' (non Mom, triathlete, soccer player and couch potato all wrapped up in one). Now I don't have time to be a couch potato, don't have the knees to be a soccer player and still desperately hanging on by a thread to being a triathlete while raising two kids! But I have to remember to be gentle on myself because change does come slowly, but it eventually does come. So I will try easing myself into some good new habits by picking 1 - just 1 and giving it three weeks. If it's successfull, we'll try another. So what is going to be good habit No. 1? Good question. Maybe it's to blog each day - just a little. Later, we'll shoot for the moon!